My hair growing white...

Inoocence...innocence...all I need now is the innocence...The complexities of relationships is really going to lead me to a very despairing situation..

One episode has ended and another has cropped up again...WHEN WILL IT EVER STOP...

The one thing I have always hated....is that I witness my close friends quarreling ...be only a third party standing there and can do nothing to help

Sure they say time will heal all wounds...but will the wounds ever completely heal??

This plus alot of other worries in my stupid job and A level results makes it a whole lot worse...

I dunno whether to answer a yes or a no...I thought you had already given me the answer...Maybe I am thinking too much and we are just the best of friends...

My hair will grow white soon...=(

Help....

BORED!!!!

One very simple word to describe now....BORED!!!

So drastcally bored is life now.....that I feel lyke it has no meaning anymore

Sure giving tuition is an enjoyable experience becoz of all the lovely kids...But Ala seems to such a kill joy...it would have been more more fun w/o her la....She breathes down our necks whenever we teach...Makes us feel lyke we have absolutely no space!!

I seriously seriously miss sch life....Sounds lyke I am crazy but the stress is seriously much less..Working is so routine that I wanna die le...

Hopefully this is not made up again but A levels may be released tis fri le...I feel very worried la..coz all the major exams I seem to really screw up very badly...

The only reclusion I can find is the ppl workin wif me....vis, peggy, linda and.....I forgot hu le.....oops....izzit jessica, BOBO or some other person...dunno la...but its still fun working with friends..=D

Some ppl oso complain their name nt here...so sry to hav neglected them but they make very very gd msn toking buddies LOL!!...Namely the BOBO and the one lobbed wif orange peels hehe =DD

Inner temperment is scary as the pain in my hand now...my avenue of stress relief is strange..I myself feel so strange...=x

CHINESE NEW YR OF THE RAT

Haha....the time of the yr has come again =D

HAPPY CNY PPL!!! This yr is the rat yr which means we muz all act lyke rats....=x

However...this yr I very sad....coz my mum is away on holiday in bintan...my dad will be workin on most of the days...so it will be pretty boring staying at home...

Firstly...CNY reunion wif my ah ma is considered quite sad....coz the dinner supposed to start at the restaurant at 730...however....they messed up our tables...put us next to the smoking corner!!!! Sianz la...coz I really hate smoke...my parents carnt stand it eiter....my da shu lost his temper again LOL....raised voice wif the staff...Well should be ok since the first dish took 1 HOUR TO SERVE!!!! We only started to eat at 8:30pm lar.....grr....That's nt all they took abt 10 mins interval between each dish!!! So by the time we finish eating was alrdy 10 pm!!! Took some pics haha but haven gotten them from my xiao shu yet...Finally a pic wif the entire family LOL..

Next day lunch was spent at my ah ma hse again...called delivery of canadian pizza, satay and KFC haha...too lazy to cook alrdy lol....summore ah ma quite old alrdy....quite intresting to see how every1 has changed in 1 yr....LOL..

Today was slack slack at home....woke up at 745 actually wanted to pei zk go joggin but he overslept....LAZY PIG =D So at home until evening them go my ma kor that side...played BINGO!!! LOL...I lost 10cents...my dad lost $2 haha all gt bad luck....Den dinner was KFC again....eekk....becoming more unhealthy....den my cous all went home....now I am stuck here am so bored again...

Tml goin to all the SSG ppl houses to bai nian lol....at least there is compensation there hehe!!!

Sunday will be steamboat at meimei hse wif mum in law, sis in law and dog LOL....(Dun ask me how the names actually came abt....)

Den is back to horrible work on MONDAY AGAIN!!! AHHHH!!!

Depressing children.....

HELP ME GET OUT!!!!!

Argh!!!.....stupid job which I should not have taken in the first place!!! I thought that tuition would mean to solely teach the children only....not do any saikang!!!! Nor do I actually nid someone who yaks and yaks and be bitchy about every little nitty gritty stuff that we do...How can I have any personal space to teach!! And seriously...$40 a day for tuition is simply exploitation!!!!! And seriously your son is so out of control can!?!?!? Scolding does not work from a tuition teacher...it takes a real mother!!! No matter how firm we are with them....do u tink they listen???

Aparrently...one look and I can tell that Leo is apparantly worked to death!!! He is always so tired la!! Still dunwan to giv break!! Sheez....

I hate the way my stupid life is going now!! I feel lyke pulling hair everyday.....it seems that I have hair fall problem alrdy....

Seriously....if it were me...I would nvr want to send my pri 3 kid to tuition...they are still so young!!! HOW in the world do u expect them to have an attention span of 4 hrs!!! Summore is straight aft sch....they will want an escape from the lessons....nt hav MORE!!!

Seriously...if dav linda and peggy wants to quit I would wanna quit too...and please I realli dunwan to teach alrdy and go into hiatus until aft army.... =(((((

Turn quick or be gone quick

Only barely 24 hrs ago I was feeling so frustrated....but now I had seen the reasons and feel so liberated...=D

Thanks for such a wonderful day today..=D=D=D

Although we both know it is not possible between us...may u and I find wat we are looking for soon..or else...later....=D

At least u saw an elightenment from some divine intervention LOL...I dun have to suffer anymore...

The world works in such miraculous ways...I always wonder....

Save me now!

OMG!!!.......I have never felt this worried...confused...angry....sad...hurt....in my entire life...It really is a cascade of emotions...it is overwhleming me to the point that I feel lyke giving up...I am physically and emotionally very very drained....

One thing I hate the most is someone taking severe pity on me...to the point where my feelings are cheated....

Another thing I hate the most is when I see friends have disgruntle feelings towards one another due to many misunderstandings.....Some of them caused by me...

I hate the big mouth I have to have uttered nonsense....Nonsense which caused people to get all the wrong ideas....

If you must know....wat u said has really hurt me....I did not know you were this kind of person...or else you have not made up your mind....or maybe you are too bounded by too many restrictions....or you did not act upon yourself....I will never know....becoz...I dunno how to face u again....

I hope that you will get thru this soon....I will explain everything to you....the other person has no fault in this whole thing....I realised I have said all the wrong things...dun be upset anymore.....I am spoiling it so much further for u.....I am so guilty today...and perhaps for the rest of my life....

As people slowly fade away....life has changed so much for me.....never for the better...only for worse.....what happened to the old life I had.....To tell u the truth....I would be so glad if we are back in a classroom....

So many complications in my life....How I wish to escape the situation....GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!

A new phase

Finally....blogspot allows me to blog again..LOL! Otherwise it takes a million yrs juz to load the edit screen...

Well....Its alrdy the 5th Jan in 2oo8...so nt used to nt going back to sch..haha imagine if u are alrdy doing it for 15 yrs of ur life..including kindergarden..I feel so old now..and one very big gripe I have is..HOW EXP TRANSPORT NOW IS!!!

Its lyke a big jump from 45c to $1 plus....Grrr.....seriously...they carnt make it any cheaper!!

The start of the this New Yr was spent in the midst of the huge crowd at Esplanade..the fireworks was a short display of bursts of lights..but they somehow giv this magical feeling...cannot be explained here in words but fireworks hav always enthralled me since young...the myriad of colours seem to bring hope =D

I carnt wait to get over 2oo7...esp Dec since it has been an upside-down month for me...so hope that all the fortunes will change!! Funny thing is u will nvr expect wat surprises th new yr mite bring..I juz wish it will be fufilling and all since this yr is gonna be very very very different...Wat wif NS...dreading...sorta...

Wish everyone a fruitful yr ahead wif all that they had dream for will come true!! =DDD

I have nvr made a resolution coz I noe in the end it does nt ever work for me.....hehe..I hope the past has been thrown away behind me...

Now Wat.....

I HATE VISTA!!!! THAT's RITE....nothing seems to work properly...further more the graphic card quite sucky...but can't xpect much since it's a free gift...=p Aniwae I am more than happy that most of the online games can play alrdy...but I seem to be bored of them alrdy...that's quite fast...=x

Going wif my family and relatives to penang tml but the sianz thing is that it has been raining these past few days...so hard to do anything swimming is oso out of the picture...(All KY fault la...control can??? =D) At least I have 5 days in hiatus...and luckily miss the shutdown of starhub in my block on 11 Dec..heng arh..Hope I wont rot on the 10hr long bus ride..=x Overnite journies are better

Prom nite was quite gd xcept for the very unfortunate incident of getting drunk...=p Actually I went overboard on the alcohol but my parents are nt aware of it...Next time we muz make all gatherings alcohol-free =D So sorry for all the inconvinience caused =x At least alot of pics taken but I lazy upload or grab from ppl... Aft the holiday bah...Actually I can't remember much that nite which is nt very good...So muddleheaded of me too to froget to bring the ticket and had to rush all the way home..Make me waste 18 bucks on cab fare...=x

Other than that...things have been goin fine...At least tuition is nt becomin a horrendous affair any longer =D But i seem to fail to make every lesson productive muz speed things up....Or else...the kids fail...they complain to their parents...the parents complain to the tuition centre....the centre sacks me...=x Need to the xtra $$$ to get a decent graphic card.. Hahaha the funni thing was that the kids lyke me becoz I easy to bully...Is that good or bad?? Hmm....Go figure...

Life is so full of romance..Am I okay with it?? The answer I am searching...but the feeling is not there...

People change after being granted freedom...I hope you do not stray...Coz ur character has changed...Are u havin any trouble??

I am so oblivious to many things as well...Izzit I dun wanna bother...or izzit I am too afraid to ask?

Sighz....

Save me from boredom???!!!

Guess wat.....

Its been a long LONG time since I blogged...

A levels are over!!!!!!! =D *Abit lagged lahh....*

My com is ruined....Graphic card has blowed...

I am starting my first tuition job tml and have no idea how it will turn out...

I have spent more $$$ in the past week than the whole year....

Most of it went to prom which is on the 6th Dec at Swisshotel...*Sounds grand*

Some of it went to indulging myself with food...

I enlist in the Army on april 11th...I tink i will dread the day when 2 yrs of freedom are lost...=(

I feel overweight and underexcercised...

I finally have the time to do anything I want!!!! =D=D=D

Missin people I have not seen in a long time alrdy...

In denial and acting quite blur about certain things.....

Feel lyke uploading photos for the first time but dunno wat to....

Stress free...until I start working....

Sick of going out to eat and shop alrdy....*which is kinda fast..*

Feels lyke an anti-socialite becoz I have no Friendster or MySpace or Facebook...*Mite join one*

Does not feel gd of the prospect of being an adult..I want to be childish...

A million and one things I should have alrdy posted here but now I forget and dunno wat to post...

Hopefully everyone is having a fruitful holiday!!

Tml I start off wif tuition trial run from 10am to 4 pm...No pay yet...get used to it...argh!! Should be still capable of teaching. Then I go wif mar,vis and ky..*which have finished their swimming by then..*..to sitex fair to look at graphic cards..hopefully can find one for less than 100 bucks. Dun want to spend a bomb again...or else I would have worked for nothing...Aniwae I muz be early tml and dun want to incur the wrath of my first boss LOL!! =D

3 weeks away....& still slacking....=p

Hihi blog I have never updated u in such a long time coz
1) Too busy
2) Too lazy
3) NO other reason xcept for the above 2....

One month plus has already passed and it has been so eventful =) Haha firstly....my B'DAE!!! 16 AUG was so special for me and am thankful for everyone who celebrated for me..hehe presents arent very impt..it is the thought that counts =D Though I nver got to drinking alcohol (luckily i didnt coz there were 2 tests the next day) it was nonetheless a fun b'dae!!

Argh wat can I say....still physically inept....can pass pull ups alrdy...but still fail standing broad jump...SIANZ!!!!! Need 1 more foot to pass...arghz....restest tis thurs and nxt mon again....

Wah....prelims in less than 3 weeks away....time flies lyke a bumblebee to tink i was still doing project work ts time last yr...sighz....Seriously damn hard to do well as my grades have been recently deproving.....juz cannot concentrate...almost failed chem test alrdy and its suppose to be quite simple.....wat the heck....still got tao nan camp form 31st to 3rd SEPT haha am i thinking I am superman!!!??? Well...only time can tell....JY every1 for their prelims and for those poly kias havin exams too!! =D

Hehe sidetrack too much le...muz go back to doing GP essay....

Rambling ON.....

How should it go.....never so well...it seems that life now focuses on one thing...to be the best and forego any godamn thing that has ever helped you before and annialate anything in ur path..=(

Studies....horror at horrendous marks...pressure to get good grades is that all there is? I pushed so hard for the mid yrs get quite good marks but what is the point? Anything must not be done for the sake of doing it...studies apply here to. People expect so much of you but you know how hard is it to give back? Expectations rise with the surface of a new challenge....am I over degrading myself? Or have I became so selfish that I have self-denial,tactless thoughts in my mind every second....How besiege am I to judge what I shld forget not to forgive? Or forgiveness applies to any sin...be it big or small?? I study only to find the world has lost its meaning...I really wish I could still be a 6 year old child...innocent...thick-headed to what is going on around them....So to speak....I am not really ready to take on the responsibilities of an adult....I crave to craft my own imaginitive world and live within it....free from all oppression...dont even get me started on that yet....My life lives on a day to day basis....not what I have ever wanted....facing consequnces fo our mistake....the already saturated world of violence....I cannot face that reality....This reality....All of reality for that matter....

People talk of changing the world lyke the recent LIVE Earth concert...awareness of our global situation...but how much damage has already been done...is it too late? Just like my life....is it too late to change the irreversible?

I cannot confide in anyone anymore....people give me reasons not to trust them....in the end I end up not trustin others thru the influence of others....how ironical....I HATE MYSELF FOR THINKING THIS WAY.....Seriously....I always wanted some one just to be there but no one seems to be....not my parents...friends or close kins. They juz treat me like a passing phase in their lives...Am I transparent....the world is a cruel place.....so so SO SO SO much expectations.....not only from others but also from myself..I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE MYSELF!!!!! I cannot even forgive sumone who has alrdy been influeneced by the world and vent his anger on me.....I feel sad for this person...but even worse....hatred...a virtual character even.....his life was etched in a scar...he juz wanted to scar others too.....sadly he chanced upon me....

Strangely....I saw 3 cats lining up outside my corridor this morning...one was black.one was brown and the other was white....wierd....I have never seen them b4 and the line in a perfect line.....their eyes juz staring...strangely....creepy...

The worse is yet to come as I saw 2 dead cats immediatly after I left my block...one in the carpark...the other while I was on the bus on my way to school....Both killed in the same greusome way...both died in car accidents....strange...strange...a sign?? Possibly not a ghost following me....the supernatural seems a little far-fetched for it to be a sign....but of what??

I tink I realli cannot control emotions anymore....if there is actaully still anything left?? My heart is an empty void...

(P.S. This entry is not meant for anyone to comprehend but if u do....gd for u....)

THe Hols...but not happi...

Yay.....the holidays finally arrive but poor me am not smiling...=(

Is this jun hols even considered a hols??....more lyke a reflection period.....more lyke a muggin period.....more lyke one of those "U had better tink abt ur future..." period....sighz....

Wat a mess I had fallen into...i spent 4hrs juz to reorganise my files and it seems lyke a hammer juz smashed my head....Lemme count...15 topics for econs(whole syllabus)....9 topics for bio(WHOLE syllabus).....27 topics for maths.....22 topics for chem....not to mention the thick revision package...ALL IN LESS THAN 4 WEEKS!!!!WTH?!?!?!?!?!plus abit worried for GP tis tues....thnks ar....wat a life we jc ppl lead....plus need to balance goin too cca when I not even taking part in any competitions...=x=x=x=x=x=x=x A levels seems very daunting now.....Where am I goin to find father time....so impt but nvr appreciate.....

Haha I tink we are an accursed batch of ppl...coz we got 2nd in soccer finals again....stupid rjc keep on winning everything lol...spend the fri and sat hanging out wif frenz....wasting time....or izzit spending "quality time"? I dunno....muddled.....confused....shld I go out anymore tis hols??

How I wish everything was as easy as the "Game Of Life".....juz find a career,get married,buy a house and retire.....haha wishing life was a game....sheesh....

Becoming a hermit for the nxt 29 days....

Tests tests tests....Mj is out to kill us....

Sighz...better blanko the previous post.....juz said all tose things in spite of anger....=(

Wah.....tis week alone has 3 tests...can u believe that?!?!?! I can almost confirm that chem is sure fail wan....I can picture it now....

Mr Sung: Colin....why did u do so badly tis time round?
Me: Erm....(almost said i went out the whole weekend =p)............coz i blank out suddenly??
Mr Sung: That is not a very gd excuse.....go out to the grandstand now!!!!
Me: AHHHH!!!!!!!!

lol....abit drama la but tis time round will seriously do very badly....

Maths was still an O.K. paper...hopez that bio is easy.....

Sighz....today training alrdy so tired still wanna hav one more on sat....AHH!!! My whole weekend is ruined...summore still got bio spa nxt wed...how to study liddat!?!??!?!

Revelations are soon for sum ppl.....but I still miss those times...=(....On the other hand I wish that the person wishes all come true and it will be a fairytale ending..=))))

Respect is IMPORTANT!!!!!

Warning! Tis Post is going to get explicit!!! =@







SOME ECONS TEACHER...PISSED ME OFF DAMN BADLY TODAY!!!! I EVEN TOOK THE LIBERTY TO RMB TO PASS 21 BUCKS TO U AND U THREW SHYT AT ME!!!!OK....I ADMIT I "ACCIDENTALLY" CALL U BY THE FIRST NAME BUT U SHLD NOT BE SO FARK AND SHOOT ME LIDDAT.....SERIOUSLY U CAN FUK OFF BY CALLIN ME A LOSER IN FRONT OF EVERY1....I JUZ FUKING WANNA PASS U THE $$ ONLI RITE??!!?!? SO WTF IS UR PROB WHEN I GOT SUM FRENS TO FOLLOW ME PASS U $$?!!?!?! U DUN BE A FUKIN LOSER CAN AND SCOLD ME LOSER WHEN U SHLD KNOW UR PLACING AS A TEACHER??? HOW U XPECT UR STUDENTS TO RESPECT U WHEN U DUN EVEN SHOW ANY GODDAMN RESPECT 2 THEM?!!?!?!? NOW I WUNT EVEN TOUCH AN OUNCE OF THE SHYT HMWRK U GIV US.....ANY QUESTIONS U ASK I JUZ DAO U LOR...=P AND DO U NOE UR FREAKIN "TIMED ASSIGNMENTS" ARE A COMPLETE WASTE OF OUR FRIDAYS?!?!?!?!.......=@@@@

So sry..u ppl had to see that but I had to that to get a load of my chest.....feelin so pissed today...till the point u spoilt my entire mood for weekend....

Aniwae....gonna meet jorim tml to shop shop 4 presents haha..gonna be so broke....wif 2 ppl b'daes comin tis weekend...we realli last minute shoppin haha

"Dont't let anyone spoil ur day" so i juz dont want the incident to ruin the weekend....

Physical is CRAP!!!!!!

Wah sianz.....I dunno y tis whole world muz place so much emphasis on physical training....as usual fail napfa again....been failing it since lyke sec3 la when they introduce the dumb dumb pull ups!!!! Lyke y carnt we all juz pull pampers...it would hav been much easier rite??(Huggies dry is comfortable =p)

Actually the underlyin reason is becoz i realli Realli REALLI dunwan to go in early army juz becoz i not "fit"....Sianz diaoz rite??If ppl go in in april may den u solo person go in jan intkae...xtra 5 mnths sia i realli dunwan...summore heard that trainin is very xiong wan for those unfit ppl...Seriously i juz wanna get thru wif tis den i will nvr hav to worry abt it again.....Juz let me jump 10cm more!!!Do 4 more pulls!!!!ARGH!!!

Today quite fruitful at least managed to do alot of hmwrk....is lyke pilling up...siaoz wan dey juz wanna make us die....1 bio essay,chem tut,maths tut and assignment,1 econs case study and essay outline...still nid to worry abt other things....STRESSED!! All that I can say is that frenz realli help u thru it all...takes ur mind of alot of things...=)

Come on ppl...is juz 7 more mnths till it will all be ovr!!! Till den.....we can onli cont to mug...=(

Sick....

Dear bloggie.....tis had to be the worst 2 days of my life......well...being sick for 2 days izzint exactly cheerful....had stomachache on tues mornin during assembly....felt lyke vomitting...den had a fever..fell aches all ovr...took early leave form....find ms low until wanna die....seriously mjc shld abolish that system!!!

Took taxi to clinic....driver kind enuf to charge me $5 although suppose to be $5.30.....diagnosed wif fever...went home took medicine....went to zzzz.....

Got worse in the evening...fever shot up.....at night was dreadful....got diahorrea...fever went all time high of 39 degrees.....

Morining wake up better...fever dropped....lao sai for another 7 times today...argh!!!Medicine doesnt seem to be workin....hope tml can recover le.....hope u all peeps had a better 2 days den me...lol...

Gotta do hmwrk le...gd nitez...zzz

EEkk!! Weekend over!!!

EEkkkk!!! The weekend is over le.....so fast dat the long gd friday and easter sunday hols are gone....Sianz tml is sch again..how i wish it will juz collapsed!!!!

Sry....i gettin abit panicky coz I hav not touched any of the hmwrk yet and there are tons to complete...I was lookin at the econs assignment and i see $$$ flowing out the paper....shucks I am seriously hallucinating....so diffcult la how to do I realli dunno...

The previous thurs nite/fri mornin was spent in sch watchin movie marathon!!!! Me,seb,rj.linda.chew,ky,ken,shude,jas,davis spent the whole nite in sch watchin chinese movies!!!..Apart from Rob-B-Hood, the movies start to get progressively more boring...its a con to make us sleep lol..silk was still ok...den huang jing jia was onli all abt chinese histories and boob sizes....fearless alrdy I cannot maintain...and shang cheng was the worst....ARGH!! Aniwae we actually won the stay awake competition lol...We oso had ou internal stay awake competition and i tink ky or jas won it coz dey went lyke 40 ovr hrs w/o sleep...proz man....

After that we still not done yet and went east coast park for leisure afternoon....Although i dunno wats so leisure abt it coz the whole park is so crowded all the bicycle rental shops the bicycles hav diappeared!!! Can u imagine that?
Me,seb and ky went cycling while chew, linda ken, jas and rj went blading...So farni to see chew so noobz haha hav to keep on clinging onto ky's bag(ken's one actually) for support haha!! Lyke lao gong lao po liddat..haha!!
Den wats worst is that chew lost his balance and injured his b***** against the tyre of the bike..OUCH!!!Other den that..me and ky went speed cycling to the second jetty...my favourite wan haha and get to enjoy the scenery for barely 5 mins b4 we had to choing back...Farni thing was we saw tian tian mi mi de scenes...(i shall not elaborate here for fear of mou mou ren killin me haha....)
Aft that went to parkway for dinner at the foodcourt and had this HUGE!! bowl of mee rubus that cost $3.30 but the protion is really really big big!!! Eat until damn full den go arcade plae plae awhile...tok cock arnd 4 a while b4 goin home....

Haha today mornin go pek san theng to go pray yeh yeh for qing ming jie b4 havin lunch and joinin ken,zoe,jas,linda for a "slack" time at safra tanah merah...ken left earlier(choing home play maple...addict le tsk tsk haha), played "go fish" lol wif jas linda and zoe b4 meetin ky for dinner at 85 market!! Eat the ever irresistable bar chor mee and shared ou lua wif seb b4 goin home....

Now wat is left is hmrk..and I dun realli feel lyke doin....shld i be bad boy??coz i now quite stressed as i quite 4gotten everything le......

Sometimes.....seriously.....maybe being smart is not all that gd....the higher expectations is quite nerve wrecking....can I stand it any longer???

Long after time!!! =D

Hey hey!! =D its been a long time since i blog cause it has been so so busy!!! Wah...seriously block test finally over..One hell damn stressful week...summore most papers sit in lt so the chair is lyke damn uncomfortable...Seriously my hunchback can get worse!!!

Erm...alls well and ends well coz block test did very good alrdy Chem-A Maths-B GP -E Bio-A(not confirmed), Econs dept is markin at the speed of a snail so we dunnoe yet.....=p To every1 hu did not do as well..this is juz block tests and there are many other tests and midyrs and prelims b4 the real thing so juz keep up wif work and jy!!~~~~Actually I realli dun mind ppl askin me anything as I always ready to lend a helping hand !! =)I not some strange alien hu speaks sum strange language that u carnt ask me anything....

Sum ppl wonder how i study wan...seriously in truth its not realli all abt muggin only...coz that will get u no where..In fact u muz study wif frenz hu can answer any doubts u have and ask teacher questions(which i rarely do...)or simply <3 the subject u are studyin..!!

Tink of chem as studyin how the simplest matter on earth can work so gd 2gather to giv u the end-products u see today...

Tink of bio as studyin how life works and what miricles surround our world everyday that we live wif...even sumthing as small as bacteria is in fact so complicated...

Tink of maths as how we solve problems that allow us to gain or to lose things in life (eg. gambling on 4-D is sure lose wan coz the possiblity of winning is like 4x9! =p)

Tink of econs as the workin of $$$ flowing around us---y our parents and all businessmen wanna make so much money 4 wat sia....

GP is abt learning the english language and the current affairs of our world lol...

And...Toby gonna thnk me 4 sayin this but chinese is oso impt lar although we nvr learn liao coz its our roots and culture....

So yar u muz enjoy the learning process b4 u can expect to actaually learn sumthing and score for test..."Don't ever learn juz for the sake of learning and pia exams can liao"<----Gd statement to learn lol dunno hu say wan i 4got le

Hope tis has benn so *cough cough* inspirational 2 every1 haha and gd luck 4 all future tests!!! =D

How... I have nvr ever since that time felt this mix of guilt, anxiousness, nervouseness, betrayal, hopelessness, feel like shoutin it all out but i carnt....This feeling etches its sharp edge on my heart, till the point that I feel like foregoing everything that I worked for this far....

If I only knew I was made this way...if only I knew things would turn out this way...how I wish I could turn back time and follwed you when you needed me....

If only I knew you will leave me forever...wish I could reverse back and say how much you mean to me and how losing you can be such a pain that I have nvr felt before.....

If I knew that things would turn out this way....I should have juz covered my ears and followed my heart which told me not to listen....Then mistakes will nvr had happened...leading to this day....how I may change someone's fate 4eva....

If only I had the essence of time...I would had seize the moment to concentrate on the more important stuff at hand...which I didnt....and I may live to regret it myself....

Tell me then? How do I succeed??

Lost In Love.....

A very silly song by the Bee Gees that goes"lost in love and I dont't know much...."...yes...sadly...I found that I know nothing about love...So many things which seem too fake or too rush...so many people I havent apologised to...how to handle love is a damn big ? I must have acted so silly at times that I can juz look back and laugh at all the stupid mistakes I made..Well..Valentine's Day is tml and I juz might end up as a lonely person...I am absolutely tactless when it comes to handling relationships...sometimes looking like a failure when I reflect on the past. If I do celebrate my first true Valentine's...I will make sure it is special for her... =)

Now that anyone visits my blog...it will be better to post things which are more secretive..lol..Aniwae sometimes u need to post some bashing or ravings w/o anyone knowing so tis id gd..hehe..very gd to do self-reflection too haha

Sometimes u wonder the direction u are taking wif life...whether izzit rite or a road to flaming inferno....??A road u can say is bendy, full of twists and turns...but I feel like I veered off the track already...I dunno but I feel....lost....