Save me from boredom???!!!

Guess wat.....

Its been a long LONG time since I blogged...

A levels are over!!!!!!! =D *Abit lagged lahh....*

My com is ruined....Graphic card has blowed...

I am starting my first tuition job tml and have no idea how it will turn out...

I have spent more $$$ in the past week than the whole year....

Most of it went to prom which is on the 6th Dec at Swisshotel...*Sounds grand*

Some of it went to indulging myself with food...

I enlist in the Army on april 11th...I tink i will dread the day when 2 yrs of freedom are lost...=(

I feel overweight and underexcercised...

I finally have the time to do anything I want!!!! =D=D=D

Missin people I have not seen in a long time alrdy...

In denial and acting quite blur about certain things.....

Feel lyke uploading photos for the first time but dunno wat to....

Stress free...until I start working....

Sick of going out to eat and shop alrdy....*which is kinda fast..*

Feels lyke an anti-socialite becoz I have no Friendster or MySpace or Facebook...*Mite join one*

Does not feel gd of the prospect of being an adult..I want to be childish...

A million and one things I should have alrdy posted here but now I forget and dunno wat to post...

Hopefully everyone is having a fruitful holiday!!

Tml I start off wif tuition trial run from 10am to 4 pm...No pay yet...get used to it...argh!! Should be still capable of teaching. Then I go wif mar,vis and ky..*which have finished their swimming by then..*..to sitex fair to look at graphic cards..hopefully can find one for less than 100 bucks. Dun want to spend a bomb again...or else I would have worked for nothing...Aniwae I muz be early tml and dun want to incur the wrath of my first boss LOL!! =D

3 weeks away....& still slacking....=p

Hihi blog I have never updated u in such a long time coz
1) Too busy
2) Too lazy
3) NO other reason xcept for the above 2....

One month plus has already passed and it has been so eventful =) Haha firstly....my B'DAE!!! 16 AUG was so special for me and am thankful for everyone who celebrated for me..hehe presents arent very impt..it is the thought that counts =D Though I nver got to drinking alcohol (luckily i didnt coz there were 2 tests the next day) it was nonetheless a fun b'dae!!

Argh wat can I say....still physically inept....can pass pull ups alrdy...but still fail standing broad jump...SIANZ!!!!! Need 1 more foot to pass...arghz....restest tis thurs and nxt mon again....

Wah....prelims in less than 3 weeks away....time flies lyke a bumblebee to tink i was still doing project work ts time last yr...sighz....Seriously damn hard to do well as my grades have been recently deproving.....juz cannot concentrate...almost failed chem test alrdy and its suppose to be quite simple.....wat the heck....still got tao nan camp form 31st to 3rd SEPT haha am i thinking I am superman!!!??? Well...only time can tell....JY every1 for their prelims and for those poly kias havin exams too!! =D

Hehe sidetrack too much le...muz go back to doing GP essay....

Rambling ON.....

How should it go.....never so well...it seems that life now focuses on one thing...to be the best and forego any godamn thing that has ever helped you before and annialate anything in ur path..=(

Studies....horror at horrendous marks...pressure to get good grades is that all there is? I pushed so hard for the mid yrs get quite good marks but what is the point? Anything must not be done for the sake of doing it...studies apply here to. People expect so much of you but you know how hard is it to give back? Expectations rise with the surface of a new challenge....am I over degrading myself? Or have I became so selfish that I have self-denial,tactless thoughts in my mind every second....How besiege am I to judge what I shld forget not to forgive? Or forgiveness applies to any sin...be it big or small?? I study only to find the world has lost its meaning...I really wish I could still be a 6 year old child...innocent...thick-headed to what is going on around them....So to speak....I am not really ready to take on the responsibilities of an adult....I crave to craft my own imaginitive world and live within it....free from all oppression...dont even get me started on that yet....My life lives on a day to day basis....not what I have ever wanted....facing consequnces fo our mistake....the already saturated world of violence....I cannot face that reality....This reality....All of reality for that matter....

People talk of changing the world lyke the recent LIVE Earth concert...awareness of our global situation...but how much damage has already been done...is it too late? Just like my life....is it too late to change the irreversible?

I cannot confide in anyone anymore....people give me reasons not to trust them....in the end I end up not trustin others thru the influence of others....how ironical....I HATE MYSELF FOR THINKING THIS WAY.....Seriously....I always wanted some one just to be there but no one seems to be....not my parents...friends or close kins. They juz treat me like a passing phase in their lives...Am I transparent....the world is a cruel place.....so so SO SO SO much expectations.....not only from others but also from myself..I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE MYSELF!!!!! I cannot even forgive sumone who has alrdy been influeneced by the world and vent his anger on me.....I feel sad for this person...but even worse....hatred...a virtual character even.....his life was etched in a scar...he juz wanted to scar others too.....sadly he chanced upon me....

Strangely....I saw 3 cats lining up outside my corridor this morning...one was black.one was brown and the other was white....wierd....I have never seen them b4 and the line in a perfect line.....their eyes juz staring...strangely....creepy...

The worse is yet to come as I saw 2 dead cats immediatly after I left my block...one in the carpark...the other while I was on the bus on my way to school....Both killed in the same greusome way...both died in car accidents....strange...strange...a sign?? Possibly not a ghost following me....the supernatural seems a little far-fetched for it to be a sign....but of what??

I tink I realli cannot control emotions anymore....if there is actaully still anything left?? My heart is an empty void...

(P.S. This entry is not meant for anyone to comprehend but if u do....gd for u....)

THe Hols...but not happi...

Yay.....the holidays finally arrive but poor me am not smiling...=(

Is this jun hols even considered a hols??....more lyke a reflection period.....more lyke a muggin period.....more lyke one of those "U had better tink abt ur future..." period....sighz....

Wat a mess I had fallen into...i spent 4hrs juz to reorganise my files and it seems lyke a hammer juz smashed my head....Lemme count...15 topics for econs(whole syllabus)....9 topics for bio(WHOLE syllabus).....27 topics for maths.....22 topics for chem....not to mention the thick revision package...ALL IN LESS THAN 4 WEEKS!!!!WTH?!?!?!?!?!plus abit worried for GP tis tues....thnks ar....wat a life we jc ppl lead....plus need to balance goin too cca when I not even taking part in any competitions...=x=x=x=x=x=x=x A levels seems very daunting now.....Where am I goin to find father time....so impt but nvr appreciate.....

Haha I tink we are an accursed batch of ppl...coz we got 2nd in soccer finals again....stupid rjc keep on winning everything lol...spend the fri and sat hanging out wif frenz....wasting time....or izzit spending "quality time"? I dunno....muddled.....confused....shld I go out anymore tis hols??

How I wish everything was as easy as the "Game Of Life".....juz find a career,get married,buy a house and retire.....haha wishing life was a game....sheesh....

Becoming a hermit for the nxt 29 days....

Tests tests tests....Mj is out to kill us....

Sighz...better blanko the previous post.....juz said all tose things in spite of anger....=(

Wah.....tis week alone has 3 tests...can u believe that?!?!?! I can almost confirm that chem is sure fail wan....I can picture it now....

Mr Sung: Colin....why did u do so badly tis time round?
Me: Erm....(almost said i went out the whole weekend =p)............coz i blank out suddenly??
Mr Sung: That is not a very gd excuse.....go out to the grandstand now!!!!
Me: AHHHH!!!!!!!!

lol....abit drama la but tis time round will seriously do very badly....

Maths was still an O.K. paper...hopez that bio is easy.....

Sighz....today training alrdy so tired still wanna hav one more on sat....AHH!!! My whole weekend is ruined...summore still got bio spa nxt wed...how to study liddat!?!??!?!

Revelations are soon for sum ppl.....but I still miss those times...=(....On the other hand I wish that the person wishes all come true and it will be a fairytale ending..=))))

Respect is IMPORTANT!!!!!

Warning! Tis Post is going to get explicit!!! =@







SOME ECONS TEACHER...PISSED ME OFF DAMN BADLY TODAY!!!! I EVEN TOOK THE LIBERTY TO RMB TO PASS 21 BUCKS TO U AND U THREW SHYT AT ME!!!!OK....I ADMIT I "ACCIDENTALLY" CALL U BY THE FIRST NAME BUT U SHLD NOT BE SO FARK AND SHOOT ME LIDDAT.....SERIOUSLY U CAN FUK OFF BY CALLIN ME A LOSER IN FRONT OF EVERY1....I JUZ FUKING WANNA PASS U THE $$ ONLI RITE??!!?!? SO WTF IS UR PROB WHEN I GOT SUM FRENS TO FOLLOW ME PASS U $$?!!?!?! U DUN BE A FUKIN LOSER CAN AND SCOLD ME LOSER WHEN U SHLD KNOW UR PLACING AS A TEACHER??? HOW U XPECT UR STUDENTS TO RESPECT U WHEN U DUN EVEN SHOW ANY GODDAMN RESPECT 2 THEM?!!?!?!? NOW I WUNT EVEN TOUCH AN OUNCE OF THE SHYT HMWRK U GIV US.....ANY QUESTIONS U ASK I JUZ DAO U LOR...=P AND DO U NOE UR FREAKIN "TIMED ASSIGNMENTS" ARE A COMPLETE WASTE OF OUR FRIDAYS?!?!?!?!.......=@@@@

So sry..u ppl had to see that but I had to that to get a load of my chest.....feelin so pissed today...till the point u spoilt my entire mood for weekend....

Aniwae....gonna meet jorim tml to shop shop 4 presents haha..gonna be so broke....wif 2 ppl b'daes comin tis weekend...we realli last minute shoppin haha

"Dont't let anyone spoil ur day" so i juz dont want the incident to ruin the weekend....

Physical is CRAP!!!!!!

Wah sianz.....I dunno y tis whole world muz place so much emphasis on physical training....as usual fail napfa again....been failing it since lyke sec3 la when they introduce the dumb dumb pull ups!!!! Lyke y carnt we all juz pull pampers...it would hav been much easier rite??(Huggies dry is comfortable =p)

Actually the underlyin reason is becoz i realli Realli REALLI dunwan to go in early army juz becoz i not "fit"....Sianz diaoz rite??If ppl go in in april may den u solo person go in jan intkae...xtra 5 mnths sia i realli dunwan...summore heard that trainin is very xiong wan for those unfit ppl...Seriously i juz wanna get thru wif tis den i will nvr hav to worry abt it again.....Juz let me jump 10cm more!!!Do 4 more pulls!!!!ARGH!!!

Today quite fruitful at least managed to do alot of hmwrk....is lyke pilling up...siaoz wan dey juz wanna make us die....1 bio essay,chem tut,maths tut and assignment,1 econs case study and essay outline...still nid to worry abt other things....STRESSED!! All that I can say is that frenz realli help u thru it all...takes ur mind of alot of things...=)

Come on ppl...is juz 7 more mnths till it will all be ovr!!! Till den.....we can onli cont to mug...=(

Sick....

Dear bloggie.....tis had to be the worst 2 days of my life......well...being sick for 2 days izzint exactly cheerful....had stomachache on tues mornin during assembly....felt lyke vomitting...den had a fever..fell aches all ovr...took early leave form....find ms low until wanna die....seriously mjc shld abolish that system!!!

Took taxi to clinic....driver kind enuf to charge me $5 although suppose to be $5.30.....diagnosed wif fever...went home took medicine....went to zzzz.....

Got worse in the evening...fever shot up.....at night was dreadful....got diahorrea...fever went all time high of 39 degrees.....

Morining wake up better...fever dropped....lao sai for another 7 times today...argh!!!Medicine doesnt seem to be workin....hope tml can recover le.....hope u all peeps had a better 2 days den me...lol...

Gotta do hmwrk le...gd nitez...zzz

EEkk!! Weekend over!!!

EEkkkk!!! The weekend is over le.....so fast dat the long gd friday and easter sunday hols are gone....Sianz tml is sch again..how i wish it will juz collapsed!!!!

Sry....i gettin abit panicky coz I hav not touched any of the hmwrk yet and there are tons to complete...I was lookin at the econs assignment and i see $$$ flowing out the paper....shucks I am seriously hallucinating....so diffcult la how to do I realli dunno...

The previous thurs nite/fri mornin was spent in sch watchin movie marathon!!!! Me,seb,rj.linda.chew,ky,ken,shude,jas,davis spent the whole nite in sch watchin chinese movies!!!..Apart from Rob-B-Hood, the movies start to get progressively more boring...its a con to make us sleep lol..silk was still ok...den huang jing jia was onli all abt chinese histories and boob sizes....fearless alrdy I cannot maintain...and shang cheng was the worst....ARGH!! Aniwae we actually won the stay awake competition lol...We oso had ou internal stay awake competition and i tink ky or jas won it coz dey went lyke 40 ovr hrs w/o sleep...proz man....

After that we still not done yet and went east coast park for leisure afternoon....Although i dunno wats so leisure abt it coz the whole park is so crowded all the bicycle rental shops the bicycles hav diappeared!!! Can u imagine that?
Me,seb and ky went cycling while chew, linda ken, jas and rj went blading...So farni to see chew so noobz haha hav to keep on clinging onto ky's bag(ken's one actually) for support haha!! Lyke lao gong lao po liddat..haha!!
Den wats worst is that chew lost his balance and injured his b***** against the tyre of the bike..OUCH!!!Other den that..me and ky went speed cycling to the second jetty...my favourite wan haha and get to enjoy the scenery for barely 5 mins b4 we had to choing back...Farni thing was we saw tian tian mi mi de scenes...(i shall not elaborate here for fear of mou mou ren killin me haha....)
Aft that went to parkway for dinner at the foodcourt and had this HUGE!! bowl of mee rubus that cost $3.30 but the protion is really really big big!!! Eat until damn full den go arcade plae plae awhile...tok cock arnd 4 a while b4 goin home....

Haha today mornin go pek san theng to go pray yeh yeh for qing ming jie b4 havin lunch and joinin ken,zoe,jas,linda for a "slack" time at safra tanah merah...ken left earlier(choing home play maple...addict le tsk tsk haha), played "go fish" lol wif jas linda and zoe b4 meetin ky for dinner at 85 market!! Eat the ever irresistable bar chor mee and shared ou lua wif seb b4 goin home....

Now wat is left is hmrk..and I dun realli feel lyke doin....shld i be bad boy??coz i now quite stressed as i quite 4gotten everything le......

Sometimes.....seriously.....maybe being smart is not all that gd....the higher expectations is quite nerve wrecking....can I stand it any longer???

Long after time!!! =D

Hey hey!! =D its been a long time since i blog cause it has been so so busy!!! Wah...seriously block test finally over..One hell damn stressful week...summore most papers sit in lt so the chair is lyke damn uncomfortable...Seriously my hunchback can get worse!!!

Erm...alls well and ends well coz block test did very good alrdy Chem-A Maths-B GP -E Bio-A(not confirmed), Econs dept is markin at the speed of a snail so we dunnoe yet.....=p To every1 hu did not do as well..this is juz block tests and there are many other tests and midyrs and prelims b4 the real thing so juz keep up wif work and jy!!~~~~Actually I realli dun mind ppl askin me anything as I always ready to lend a helping hand !! =)I not some strange alien hu speaks sum strange language that u carnt ask me anything....

Sum ppl wonder how i study wan...seriously in truth its not realli all abt muggin only...coz that will get u no where..In fact u muz study wif frenz hu can answer any doubts u have and ask teacher questions(which i rarely do...)or simply <3 the subject u are studyin..!!

Tink of chem as studyin how the simplest matter on earth can work so gd 2gather to giv u the end-products u see today...

Tink of bio as studyin how life works and what miricles surround our world everyday that we live wif...even sumthing as small as bacteria is in fact so complicated...

Tink of maths as how we solve problems that allow us to gain or to lose things in life (eg. gambling on 4-D is sure lose wan coz the possiblity of winning is like 4x9! =p)

Tink of econs as the workin of $$$ flowing around us---y our parents and all businessmen wanna make so much money 4 wat sia....

GP is abt learning the english language and the current affairs of our world lol...

And...Toby gonna thnk me 4 sayin this but chinese is oso impt lar although we nvr learn liao coz its our roots and culture....

So yar u muz enjoy the learning process b4 u can expect to actaually learn sumthing and score for test..."Don't ever learn juz for the sake of learning and pia exams can liao"<----Gd statement to learn lol dunno hu say wan i 4got le

Hope tis has benn so *cough cough* inspirational 2 every1 haha and gd luck 4 all future tests!!! =D

How... I have nvr ever since that time felt this mix of guilt, anxiousness, nervouseness, betrayal, hopelessness, feel like shoutin it all out but i carnt....This feeling etches its sharp edge on my heart, till the point that I feel like foregoing everything that I worked for this far....

If I only knew I was made this way...if only I knew things would turn out this way...how I wish I could turn back time and follwed you when you needed me....

If only I knew you will leave me forever...wish I could reverse back and say how much you mean to me and how losing you can be such a pain that I have nvr felt before.....

If I knew that things would turn out this way....I should have juz covered my ears and followed my heart which told me not to listen....Then mistakes will nvr had happened...leading to this day....how I may change someone's fate 4eva....

If only I had the essence of time...I would had seize the moment to concentrate on the more important stuff at hand...which I didnt....and I may live to regret it myself....

Tell me then? How do I succeed??

Lost In Love.....

A very silly song by the Bee Gees that goes"lost in love and I dont't know much...."...yes...sadly...I found that I know nothing about love...So many things which seem too fake or too rush...so many people I havent apologised to...how to handle love is a damn big ? I must have acted so silly at times that I can juz look back and laugh at all the stupid mistakes I made..Well..Valentine's Day is tml and I juz might end up as a lonely person...I am absolutely tactless when it comes to handling relationships...sometimes looking like a failure when I reflect on the past. If I do celebrate my first true Valentine's...I will make sure it is special for her... =)

Now that anyone visits my blog...it will be better to post things which are more secretive..lol..Aniwae sometimes u need to post some bashing or ravings w/o anyone knowing so tis id gd..hehe..very gd to do self-reflection too haha

Sometimes u wonder the direction u are taking wif life...whether izzit rite or a road to flaming inferno....??A road u can say is bendy, full of twists and turns...but I feel like I veered off the track already...I dunno but I feel....lost....

1 week of nothingness.....

Haha if I only knew how to post pics....me this sua gu dunno of else can show wat I did last saturday lol...went wif candice,diana, ,louis, jieshi, mag, siying and shu ling to make OH SO ADORABLE teddy bears for the chingay fund-rising coming up...haha made only 4 bears..sad...suppose to make 8 but i slack slack lol...You should know that my creativity and design is zero! Dunno how to sew...so in the end had to use staples!! Ouch go and staple the bear! =p Support us moz prob in orchard rd on the 4th jan sunday!!

Farni how things always seem to happen to our class...lol juz yesterdae in the library got the bio lab attendant quarrell wif us...I was lyke OMG wat was he tinking la....trying to pick fight juz becoz jun zhi lend the paper to ben yeo juz to read summore...claim he staff and we gangsters...more LYKE THE OTHER WAY ROUND LA!!!!!! Try to reason wif him oso dun listen...too bad he nvr got sacked...seriously.....I juz stoned there very blur and puzzled by his actions...plz la hav more sense to behave in sch can...!?!?!?! Sheesh...In the end chew oso got dragged into it for helping jun zhi So unreasonable the assistant...juz dunwan to be racist here....

Oh ya...lifesavin now got new coach called emily"pauline loo" HELP!!! Make us swim 20 laps non-stop of obstacle swim...can die wan la so xiong!!! so dats y now quite tired alrdy dun feel lyke doin hmwrk although there is econs and chem i I tink...

Haha celebratin jk b'dae tis fri lookin very forward to it to escape tis stressful week....meetin wif everyone again...sumthing not done in a long time =)

Sianz....

It is raining....and sort of dampening my mood...

Homework oso so many dun feel lyke doing anymore....

Orientation is over but freshies are lyke too hardworking!!!!

Wat is this poor guy to do????

End of yr thoughts 2006

Haha long time no blog but this post here will wrap up all that has happen in 2006!!

Jc life was more tough then it seems with alot of ups and downs wor...everything became like 10 times more difficult then usual with so many things to juggle and balance but finnaly the year is coming to a close and hopefully this year will end in a good note =D

This holidays was more fun after the trans centre camp which was a very "saiful" experience lol! Although me slack slack doing logistics only...it was so much fun seeing the kids have a ball of a time...from cute to downright naughty moments..we all had them...they are juz seriously misunderstood people hu want all the attention they can get which they may not have gotten from their families or friends...I can only hope that this experience as a child can shape them up to serve society better when they grow up and not be so mischievous lol....Overall the experience is really an i opener!

This year cannot celebrate christmas becoz my ah gong juz pass away so we never make the routine celebrate at my cousin's hse...Although this christmas was celebrated with new friends...it sure was an unforgetable experience!! First time drink 40% vodka drink abt 2 shots and still quite sobre....the rest of them got relatively drunk i tink...After dinner at shermaine's hse..(I left my umbrella there haha) den we go orchard road to paty!!(Tink we mad liao cannot tink properly...aft wat happen last year...)..We actually bought those foam spray cans and spray at ppl..(mostly the banglas!!prevent them from molesting us...oops shd't be racist here...)den sadly mag lost her wallet in the crowd=(((((( Had to go orchard police there to report but found out there were much more serious cases so got long long queue den us so we decided to put on hold....Aft which we has the most outrageous suggestion to WALK from orchard all the way to east coast park!!! So me,seb,jas,mag,rj and linda made the LONGEST walk in our lives which started form 2plus am all the way to 6am!!! 4hrs of walkin omg!!!! We were also abit drunk aniwae haha..When we finally reach macs our feet were killing us...linda and mag had blisters=(((But the nite was fun lar lol! when home knock out until 5plus in the evening on christmas day...I also finally get to watch deasth noto 2!!! so 2006 ended wif no regrets lol

So sry to rim and the rest for pang seiing them...nxt time i sure make myself free one haha...new year resolutions ar....hmm...well its A levels nxt yr so of coz muz gambatte and do my best for it...get fitter to get the silver at NAPFA...make seb lyke cats o_O...spend more time with sec sch frens...watch all the cool movies comin out nxt yr...naruto pls end ur stupid fillers!!! @__@....not to forget ur b'dae again haha so paiseh paiseh...and to have alll other unfulfilled wishes and task to go smoothly and come true lor

Wishing all those I still haven't wish a merry x'mas 2006 and a Happy New Year 2007!!!!!!!!

Somewat bad...

HELP!! Mr lion please save me I think I am going insane... Why am I starting holiday hmwrk so early!??! Its not even the last week of sch hols wat...usually its uptil then then start choinging wan...Sianz...It shows one thing and that is I am bored...

Alot of people very busy poly ppl are mostly havin their term paper(jia you wor =D) so no time....but oso i too lazy to call people =p Somewat roting at home now...with seriously nothing better to do than rewatch animes and see tv shows(some of them not intresting wan oso start watching like desperate housewives!!!) kk conclusion is I am still bored...even blogging oso quite bored haix...

Went out for dinner at changi had great seafood..now juz came back and quite full...dunno how many kilos going to put on this hols...At least this wed and thurs got children's camp hopefully they dun bully me can liao haha

Oh HoW LOng....

Lemme first clear the cobwebs....AH! and kill the spider (SPlat!)

Btw a spider harass me at the expo today..there was a spider suddenly out of the blue for no strange reason and spun a web in my face! ARGH! I hate things that crawl....

Went out with my parents for john little sale grab a few bermudas and finally a change of pillows lol..Yesterday went to IKEA warehouse and looked at the furniture..that place is HUGE!! But in the end juz bought coasters for the cups that's all but hopefully in the near future will have a new sofa bed =)

Malacca trip was great did nothing else but shop and eat and shop and eat, aniwae wat else can u do there? Lesson learnt: Never! Never eat the satay celup there...it gives u a big stomach upset and diahorrea which is wat happened to Aunt Ruby..nice woman but cannot enjoy her vacation sighz...Bought alot of foodstuff and clothes back home, got new shopping centre which is going to open soon so next time go back....spend more $$$$

Well my mum's kampung friend open this new zhi char restaurant at tampines 800 plus there near the tamp west cc. Food was great!! Esp the mee sua and mee goreng!! So much better than those u get usually so much so we went back a second time yesterday lol.. Was there first time to celebrate ma kor poh b'dae on sunday...He was so happy to see us...say muz go more often haha

Now to get more emo.....i still miss my ah gong....I noe how people pass on and u muz still get on with life...but our hse now feels that sumthing is missing not only here...in my heart too.... He has took care of me since I was born and he told me he hopes to see me thru uni..but now..he can't...I still can't bear the thought that there is no one now to tell me that is alrdy very late and muz go sleep...You know that these pass few nights I have been sleeping past 1 which is very unusual...

There will be no one to tell me to go bathe and not start on the com straight away...no one to wake me up in the morning...no one to make milo and bread the right way....I still dunno how much condensed milk to add haha.....It always fails to have that correct sweetness....No one to pei me watch tv in the evening... I have lost a loved one to me and to u to the whole family...

Years may go by b4 I can really put this behind me...but fret not that I will remeber you 4eva! You made my life and ensured that I never fall...Sumtimes I wish u would come back in my dreams but I know you would not want me to worry about you so its ok! Have a nice time wif mahmah in heaven.. May u both have a wonderful life in eternity!

Oh yar...failures....I seem to take them very badly.... They get worse as we grow older..knowing how much responsibility u need...But as they say...failures are stepping stones to your success...but i tink its bullshit if u dun have effort....then again..I am a lazy lazy person...so...very hard for me to change!!! Haiz....

Aniwae...now looking forward to TRANS centre camp bah...how erm hem "nice" it would be to work with children lol...juz kidding of coz it will be nice....

You made my life...

I have not blogged for a very long time but I never thought I would blog about this so soon...

I woke up this morning to the frantic call of my mum, she said that gong gong was in serious condition and the doctor asked us to go down...

I did not want to think of the worst...but...

We reached and the news was bad...the blood pressure was low and the heart rate is not very stable

We went in for one last look...my mum cried consoled him...

Then the heart rate started to fall....It was like some drama serial....But this was different...I told him" Gong gong, go peacefully ok? I grow up already..go join ma ma.. Mummy Daddy also can take care of themselves"

Then the heart rate dropped...I witnessed it...80....50...45...40...--...

I cried...my aunt told me not too....but I still cannot control it....He took his last breath...I saw it and knew he was waiting for us first before he went....

Just 2 days ago he was still relatively fine...that was the last I saw of him....

Do you know how guilty I felt that I never got to see him yesterday??.... Regret is such a hated word....

At least I know he went in peace...just like how he wanted it....

Shucks I am wetting the keyboard again....

Erm...abit lag but nvm....

Hahaha...i got so little time that i dun even have time to post anything...lolz...but quick one here...

Promos is over(like 2 weeks ago) got my results back and am quite happy =)

Wishing that our class dun have to seperate...aniwae now everyone is choinging pw wr that they dun even have time to worry....but some of them have their fate hanging in the balance..hope that everyone can overcome it!

I tink wr...actually pw is really sucky as it saps all ur energy and time!! ARGH!!!

I know how u want it to be but please always remember me as a friend =D I am not some kind of evil person dun worry =D

Why I am so Happy!!

Yes!! Yes!! YES!!!

Haha at last muggin and the life with no life is over!! Promos has ended but I tink I abit lag becoz its saturday already...lolz Aniwae...aft promos went for SUSHI buffet lunch at orchard cine suki eat until the stomach feel like exploding lolz but at least we manage to clear the $19.55 we spent and we made a mess and made alot of noise....untill the staff there oso not happy wif us...i tink...sry komedasai!

General feelings for this promos:
G.P.: OK!
Econs: Half-dieded (Why muz my blue pen run out of ink at a time like this!)
Chinese: OK!
Bio:Dieded (Got so many concepts mix up + paper was quite hard)
Chem: Half-dieded (Made alot of careless mistakes once i tink abt it....)
Maths: Dieded (So many careless mistakes + my maths is lousy to begin with)

So you can see how i really dread next week.....=(

Sry but lazy to reply tag comments nxt time =p