Phew....

Wah....Finally get to relax aft all eternity....Tis whole week has been one hell of a ride lolz. Had bio spa on wed which i think i screwed up like *insert expletive*, chinese and gp test on thursday...like the longest day of my life...still had bio olympiad presentation to do on thurs which was damn boring...zZz
Really looking forward to nxt week, apart from chem test at least it is less stressful and summore teacher's day celeb at pasir ris park which hopefully is quite fun! At least also dun hav to worry too much abt BM test...at the rate i am going with it...I may actually kill the person rather than save him..haiz...Juz hav to train harder lor..Gambatte!
Aniwae...going through this phase in life now where u feel everything to you is unfair, nothing seems to be going right and u wanna break free from the opression, but sumtimes u have to sit down and wonder...wat have u done to ur life? Well i wish to find the answer...soon...but to all those around me who care...to them I matter the most, Sry if i made u angry...but i know that u will always care, never giving up hope for me and someday, I will show it to you =)

Tag replies:
davis: Thnks and i wish to relax but sumtimes abit difficult...
ying: Ouch! haha aniwae ty beri muchie! =)
tude: haha i seriouly nid to take up anger management course soon...I the type got imploding anger...quite bad lar...
kwang: haha thanks...trying to live with it hopefully all go well, now okie liao =) Gd luck to u too!!
ser:hehe thanks! Well trying to cope here lolz
ongton:wah...how u squirm ur way into here lolz. Jiayou bah for ur O levels!!! =D Aniwae added u liao lolz
Jasmine: Under alot of stress..yup...but i noe u gonna scold me that i actually have none lol...
cca: dun worry it is still not too late lolz..aniwae gd luck for ur promos too!! =)

I have sinned....

I really never meant to do it but i was and am getting very impulsive nowsadays.... Perhaps out of the spite of anger it did happen...I have never blew my temper this much before...

Yesterday, was suppose to go out at nite for a while, relieve some stress wif frenz but it was around 7 plus. When my mum heard i wanted to go to town she told me not to go...but me defiantly told her it is for awhile only. I dunno wat happened but it escalated into a heated arguement! I have NEVER argued wif my parents before...much less my mum. What is happening to me? I seem to be going against them more often than usual and it seems quite hard to control myself! If it is all the freedom thingy getting a grip on me than I will feel so ashamed...After all, they are juz worried about me rite? I dun even have the courage to go and apologise for my mistake...Seriously..wat am i becoming?

I even promise her not too long ago on my b'dae that i will grow up better and more mature...but i juz cant understand...the angst of growing up...She is already so stress looking after gong gong and still have to worry about me...From now on muz be more understanding already, after all...u see through for me that i grew up to wat i am today and i am extremely grateful for that =)

I had better stop before i spoil my keyboard...

u are 16 i am 17.....lolz

Hehe!! Happy B'dae to me!!!! =) yuck...i sound like a happy freak but aniwae thanks to all those hu wish me (or did not...) but its juz a b'dae so nvm...haha!
Sianz already abt the fact that i have cca on this very special day but luckily it wasnt very exhausting...
Had a nice dae singing b'dae song like a funeral procession " '___', "pole" me but it wasnt actually painful (Sadistically speaking it was suppose to hurt =p), still went to buy oreo cheesetart, oh yar...watching 5 other ppl got poled hehe =), unsuccessful attempt at styling hair, but thanks guys for a great day!
Went back for dinner and eat a nice warm meal prepared by mum hehe, got curry fish head!! My favourite!! Thanks u and dad so much for giving birth to me at such a special time into such a special place!
So blessed to have a caring family and wonderful friends! you guys are milONElion(go figure...)
Take this strange chance to wish happy b'dae to those hu i forget =p, u all also deserve this special day!

Tag replies

davis: sry ar was mentoring my junior, aniwae u shld have known by now =p
ser: haha sry ar 4get to tell u, see u ard too, always together wif sara and the "304 gang"
tude: wah....sounds even more complicated than me lolz but will keep that in mind thanks! hope u shift hse a success, quite nice too lol
Jasmine: haha thanks but making that difference seems quite difficult...
Dlego: lolz u drop by ar...lol hope u are doing well in vj!! =)

*The World in Chaos*

I dunnoe why but i really feel like posting again today...perhaps seeing the world in this dire state saddens me...
With all this recent bombings and terrorist plots around the world...I admit it really scares me to the max =(

Someone can just tell me why our world is not at peace?
Someone can tell me why they have to do this?
Someone tell me why can't juz everyone get along!
Someone said to me it is all so far away...why bother?

But I cant juz live to see innocents die...that is not how our world should work! It is not only the victims of this tradgedy that suffer, the terrorists as well... I believe no one is born to this world as evil or devillish, through faith they strongly believe but the human insincts set in...become brainwashed, dellusioned...why, can someone tell me why?...It may seem like an impossible dream, seeing a world where all races can live in peace and harmony...no weapons...no destruction...no war...Why cant they juz shake hands and put their minor differences aside?

Ranting and raving wont help as I live in a comfortable world, never exposed to all these death and destruction before. What courage will I need to take on the world of hatred and revenge? Cowardice in the body, but all it takes is a strong heart and venture that step forward.

Who knows?

The B'dae of our nation

HeY SiNgApOrE! HaPpIe BeLaTeD B'dAe!!! =x Opps....totally forget to blog on national day itself..abit late liao but nvm hehe.
Went to watch "click" with the guys yesterdae and it was damn stupid and farni haha. Imagine a dog "f"ing a stuff toy duck!!!!(Sry for the crude lang ppl). Went home and celebrated nation's 41st b'dae wif the entire extended family lol, our house was quite packed, didn't noe it can actually squeeze so many people.
The dae b4 was spent wif useless 4hrs in sch for concert and crappy econs lecture/test(as usual will fail..) den went out wif the class to bugis for lunch at mos burger! been so long since I had the taste of mos burger =p yum yum. Luckily got this beri nice 6 days off form sch but still nid to worry abt so much hmwrk haiz....
Aniwae...hope that it will be a more funner week(highly doubt it becoz got chem spa)

Tag Replies
davis: Jia you all the way lolz may u 2 hav a blissful relationship haha =D
ying:mew! gambatte too!!! =D
tude: Thnks for the useless tag lolz...juz kidding
sebas:i tink ur times are more rougher than mine lolz *wink* aniwae jia you! =D
fiO:haha anyway lions are not supposed 2 be fierce hehe

The Wind On The Beach

Another week juz flew by and it feels like a breeze... As usual nothing in the lectures seem to be going into my head, alot of ????? everywhere...haiz...=(
Well one of the more known scandals in class has been made known to all, congrats to davis and happie b'dae to mag, jia you from ur pw mate here lolz *winks*. And to the other person, may u never give up and continue to have the faith in her, dont keep on blaming urself for wat has already happened, juz continue to show ur feelings to her and one day she will see...(perhaps stop replying in "one-liners") haha juz joking.
A quiet friday evening at ECP, the people are all doing their leisurely stuff, it was a serene and windy day..so nice for cycling rite? Well after days of muggin it was high time you put down your books and stop worrying about sch, lectures, tutorials and wat nots... Cycling you say helps you to think, for me is about relaxing... Sitting at the jetty(haha u sit i stand) was where it was fun!! The wind blowing fills your soul with so much life you never knew you had before(it doesnt make you sticky lolz) and the rolling of the waves was what u said, it feels as though you are moving with the ocean. Seeing the fishermen at their work, how we wish could be like them, so little stress. When we realized the time, dinner became of a rush so as to not pay xtra for the bikes haiz....Observation made:Ang mohs like to stick their finished satay sticks through the paper plate so it stands vertically lolz(If i were to do that my grandpa will slaughter me as it is now 7th month, beri disrepectful to do that). After we return the bikes, we bought drinks and settled by the side of the beach...tok and tok(Sry nver tok much abt me, mostly is you) until the time to go home...I was juz too tired and never tok much causing you to be bored =x, well it least it was a nice end to a wonderful evening i will always remember.
What you have said in the sms I will accept but my heart will not die so soon lolz, have more confidence in yourself or tell me if there is anything bugging you haha, if about me also juz say lor...
Anyway, promos are coming and next week will be a hell of a week with chem and econs test....=x. A student's life is 4eva stressfull, but the pain will be short-lived =)

Tag replies:
ying: haha keniving means scheming,qiao zha i tink...lolz, u are definately not liddat haha
jasmine: haha secrets are meant to be secrets... and if I am not wrong you are supposed to be sick on that day lolz...rest more =)
tude: how can you be spying on ann liddat!! lolz yar a success in life is juz how u define it, hopefully not too big but not too small either..
cca: yay hiz!! wah u got blog liao ar...seems like everyone is into the bloggin craze now =x Aniwae, take care and do well for ur promos!!

Scandalous and kenaiving people lolz...

Well... I have to admit a simple fact that I am not and never will be a good keeper of secrets lol...They are meant to be shared anyway...haha. Quite evil here but i know when to keep my mouth shut...but it seems to be getting difficult and I am afraid more trouble will arise if I know too many things... It is already an achievement to know sooooo many things yet still keep quiet lolz. Anyway...everything will end soon....haha such an unpredictable ending it will be...
The kenaiving(not sure if tis correct spelling) people are at work taking free time off from this friday to enjoy a more meaningful end to the week...Crazy people with their crazy timetable planning...Haiz...
Today and every other day is going to be a repeated cycle that never ends it seems, hopefully someone brings me out of it...
Went back to kimage at tamp blk 201 there wif sebas only to find out that they need an appointment!! (Partly our fault becoz we went late..) Seriously a haircut is beri essential as long hair getting irritatin!! We chat for awhile b4 going home, and feel that tml is going to be another boring day...Oh no u kenaiving people who make us go through all this!!
(If u cannot understand half of wat i am saying...it is excusable...I am juz typing nonsense...)

Make u feel...

At least now my grandfather is resting and recuperating nicely at home. He was so glad to be back the day before, how he misses home so much. It is so true to say that the home is where ur heart is, HOME SWEET HOME lolz. Now although still need help of a wheelchair to move around...at least he is more active and eats more lol. Haha have faith in urself gong gong and dun worry too much, together as a family we will get thru this! =)
Juz smsed u thru the phone and at least u are feeling all the better and dun sound so pessimistic, I will try my best to show that i still care lolz and hope we will get thru this tough journey in life together hehe =p. U happy I happy and this whole world seems a better place wif u. I am glad I made someone feel appreciated for who she is, may u now know urself better*wink*. Never ever dwell on the negatives of life, look ahead and smile, onli then u will find ur true happiness (again this is not quoted by me lol). This paper aeroplane must reach into ur hands k? Then u will know that sumone still cares for u lol....Haha i sounding to mushy liao.
Ani wae, will be AHS concert tml on sunday nite at esplanade, quite a big event especially when tix prices are so expensive... At least get to see old people again so yar...catch up on each other, have a good laugh ===>--> <--Paper aeroplane

One Step Forward.....

Haiz....the routine i have 2 go thru everyday is seriously killing me... Seriously sapping away all my energy =x If I were to suddenly pengx and faint in school, it will seriously be normal. Why oh Why muz they stress us with so much tests!!! I have a Biology DNA test tml which i dun tink i am prepared for....an econs test nxt week and god knows how many more....STRESS ah!!! Summore got EOM haven even touch yet and need to hand in nxt monday....By rite suppose to be tml....sux man...
At least got happy things to look forward to, got class bbq tml as well as AHS concert on sunday....reserve sat for rest...i realli need ALOT. Finding jc life to be beri stressful...muz realli learn to balance ur time beri well, making sure that u can complete all the tasks that are thrown at u... If this goes on, i will want to complain and ask MOE to explain y is life liddat? (But i tink i will nvr do...:p)
Well, i have seen how fast people can act to pursue wat they want, to tell u the truth i realli envy them. Juz met juz now at airport and we tok crap for abt 2:1/2 hrs before going to the point... Felt that i have sat on the fence abt the whole thing and hav to decide whether to take a step forward or backward... I wish to take that step forward but it ain't going to be easy, but i still have to try =D Hopefully u can still give me this chance, i thought abt it and i realli want to go ahead with it. Hope to cya soon when u are free and put a smile back on ur face k? Life isn't all abt studying lolz =D
Aniwae, I will TRY to do the EOM now....but it will be unsuccessful, cont'd to mug bio haiz.....So typical of a jc student...

A fun weekend =)

Whoa! Seriously the most unexpected juz happened yesterday...Can't believe it but we got 2ND for the SMRT Challenge! YaaaaaaaaY! =D We run here, run there, run everywhere, got lost for some parts, stuck at some parts (stupid chapteh hai si wo........ Sorry but no childhood dunno how 2 play =P) but still managed to win! :DDD Altogether prize $$ is 1500 so it works out to 375 per person, really not bad for 5 hrs worth lolz. Thinking of wat to do wif the $$$...maybe save 300 and spend 75 on sumthing...dunno wat yet though. Haha must realli thank my team mates seb, ben and davis for this fun and memorable xperience! Went to suntec for fish & co. dinner to treat ourselves, aft that tok cock for awhile den went home, pengx i on the pillow sleeping liao...
Haiz...back 2 sch for another boring routine...realli no life, found out that time got shorter and so much hmwrk haven do sianz.... Luckily get to leave halfway for a dental appointment, got red and white coloured plastic thingys for the braces to be patriotic lolz!! National Day comin already...how time flies...
Oh yar...today got a beri cool japanese high school band (claiming to be the top) come play during mornin assembly, dey were quite wierd and cute at the same time when got those japanese cheerleaders come out lolz, those type of dancing u only see in animes. Haha at least it ate into some of ms chia's period for maths *evil*, she so blur as usual, summore got group thingy... Wat other crazy ideas can she come up with *rolls eyes*

Going Back...

o___O! Today went back for AHS 50th aniversery and frankly it was extremely boring...as usual. At least get to see some of the Sec 4 friends, sadly feel like losing touch with them already coz all go different sch, so busy wif sch life until beri long never communicate, trying not to lose it lor =x
After the whole event, went for lunch wif the choir ppls at kfc at bedok int, zhou and reub being fools as usual while wong tryin to take videos of both of them again lolz. After payin xin yi the money for next sunday concert, I am now in great debt....owe jorim 6 bucks and enoch 3 bucks for lunch....I seriously very broke. If I go ask my parents for money sure kena scolded one.... our finacial situation is not doing well... At kfc, met my tjc bio teacher ms lena lim, hu is also zhou's ct now, i will seriously want her to be my bio teacher rather than mr owen....lol. Summore she AHS alumni, quite good looking and can joke around...haix.. =(
So one by one we parted and i had to return home for not long, i left the house to visit my grandpa at CGH. Now i can see he is so much better able to joke and talk without feeling breathless. I pray that you can recover asap and start bringing life to our house again... I hate the feeling of coming back to an empty house..,so desolate and forlorn, wish u can continue everytime buy snacks for me when i return form school. Never give up okie gong gong!
Anyway, will be going for the SMRT challenge tml wif seb davis and ben so hopefully can win lor YaY! =)
P.S. Sry 2 jorim for leavin so abruptly juz now and havin 2 scream at me through the phone =x.

YaY! First Post!

Juz hope that no one ever finds this blog haha!! I am kinda evil but when one has to bitch and bash, not very good for everyone to know lolz.
Got kinda settled down for now and i was kidding in my first para.... I actually had a private blog, but kinda wants to post a public one so that everone knows wat my life is all about! Not very exciting but dun worry, its not boring either!!
Lets see.....i settled in to jc life, juz had mid yrs which was not bad actually,

Chem--B
Bio--D
Maths--E
Econs--B ( hehe )
GP--D
Chinese--B (surprisingly)

Not wanting to show off seriously but juz wanna keep a record haha =)
But the most troubling thing in my life is the amt of bad luck that has befallen my family nowsadays... My grandpa is ill in hospital for close to a month but slowly recovering from his bout of sepsis. My mum lost her whole bag which contained her I.C. and house keys in the toilet at the hospital. Some ungrateful brat stole everything when she forgotton to take it out of the toilet. CURSE HIM(or HER)!!!!! She made a police report but hopez can get back haiz.... My Dad is also feeling beri stressed about the finacial stiuation we are in so i also feel stressed haix....Hopefully our luck will turn for the better and not got any worse....
Oh yar....4D tix that my grandfather wanna buy are in her bag....Curse the STUPID pilferer!!!! Juz hope and hope and hope....