How... I have nvr ever since that time felt this mix of guilt, anxiousness, nervouseness, betrayal, hopelessness, feel like shoutin it all out but i carnt....This feeling etches its sharp edge on my heart, till the point that I feel like foregoing everything that I worked for this far....

If I only knew I was made this way...if only I knew things would turn out this way...how I wish I could turn back time and follwed you when you needed me....

If only I knew you will leave me forever...wish I could reverse back and say how much you mean to me and how losing you can be such a pain that I have nvr felt before.....

If I knew that things would turn out this way....I should have juz covered my ears and followed my heart which told me not to listen....Then mistakes will nvr had happened...leading to this day....how I may change someone's fate 4eva....

If only I had the essence of time...I would had seize the moment to concentrate on the more important stuff at hand...which I didnt....and I may live to regret it myself....

Tell me then? How do I succeed??